I almost burned down the house…

I almost burned down the house…

Yep you read that right…and it’s only 7:45am on a Tuesday. That’s the best description of my life right now…ON FIRE. Not necessarily all in a bad way, some good things.

Last month I started a new “thing” where I don’t complain. It was tough at first but with each passing day it becomes easier and easier. I will admit that sometimes there’s a glitch in the matrix and i’ll find myself complaining about something stupid but then I stop myself. Why did I start this “no complaining thing?” Well, because I noticed that when you spend your ENTIRE day complaining, it just puts you in a negative mood. It’s like you’re creating your own little dark cloud. I also noticed that the people around me weren’t helping; complaining all day everyday…that gets toxic. Don’t get me wrong, it’s ok to engage in some friendly complaining banter but there’s a point where it just becomes too much and it gets overwhelming and kind of annoying. So, I decided to stop and in turn, my days have been happier and way more positive. There’s a saying, “complaining won’t solve any of your problems.” That right there is the truth.

Besides the no complaining situation I’ve also tried to meditate. I didn’t understand the power of meditation until I actually did it. If you don’t know already from past posts, I have PTSD, anxiety and mild depression. Something that has been helping me a lot was downloading the Calm app. Not only does the app include daily meditations but it has soundscapes and sleep stories. I’m trying to do their daily meditations in the morning before clocking in, which is one of the best ways to start my day. I’ve noticed my mood change; more relaxed and less stressed throughout the day. If you haven’t checked the Calm app out, definitely do and see how you can incorporate it into your life.

On top of all this I was dealing with some family health stuff, which really has taken a toll on me. When things like this happen, you really do see who truly is a friend and who’s not. It sucks to say that but it’s the reality. To the one’s that have taken their time to ask me how I am doing, you’re truly appreciated and to the one’s that haven’t….kick rocks. I’m grown, there are other things in life that deserve my time and attention; dealing with those kinds of people is not one of them.

Ok, I’m done. This was just a rant post, some things that I needed to get off my chest. I don’t know if I’ll do this again, let’s see.

Therapy Session with Flower Bodega

STORY TIME!! Growing up I was always surrounded by flowers and plants because of my mother. She has the most amazing green thumb, it’s kind of sickening sometimes. When I was younger, she would wake me up on the weekend to help her outside in the garden. At the time, I wasn’t the biggest fan but I loved helping her with something she loved. I didn’t think that when I grew up, I would be obsessed with plants and flowers as much as I am now. For me, it has become a form of therapy. The same way music brings me peace, so does being around nature.

I’ve been really going through it these last couple of months. Personal emotions, work issues that lead to anxiety and just life. But luckily, slowly I have found that I can do things that I love for therapy. Some people seek a psychologist to help and cope but right now during COVID, I haven’t been able to take that course of action. Thankfully I found an online workshop with a flower shop called Flower Bodega.

Flower Bodega shipped her participants a bundle of flowers and plants to create a tropical floral arrangement. The bundle included: assorted palm leaves, cymbidium orchid, anthuriums, celosia and protea along with floral shears, a small ceramic vase and clear floral tape. I was super excited. The hour long workshop was full of Salsa music (to put us all in a tropical mood), laughs and Aurea was sure to make everyone feel comfortable while creating our arrangements.

At the end of the workshop, I felt joy, happiness, peace and every other synonym there is for happy. Now I have officially come full circle; I finally feel the love my mother felt when we were in her garden.

In honor of Mental Health Awareness Month…

In honor of Mental Health Awareness Month…

May was dedicated to Mental Health Awareness and I chose to share my story. I have the lovely opportunity to write for MISSBISH, a female-driven editorial platform, that allowed me to write a piece about how I cope with my PTSD and anxiety.  Only a few people know that I suffer from this but I felt that it was time to share and appropriate for Mental Health Awareness month. Music helps me through the hard times so it was only right to create a playlist of what songs, currently, help me to relax in hopes to help anyone else. You can click here to read the entire story and listen to my playlist.